Friday, April 22, 2016
Feeling Down
I can’t
help but feeling down today. When the job you do is not good enough and then
you are punished for it, it really deflates your ego. The pep that has been in
my step the past 11 days is all but gone. The incentive to give 110% is no
longer within me. I know my weight causes my 110% is probably the same as a healthy
person’s 70%. I am trying to lose weight though. I wish I could snap my fingers
and lose 200 pounds, but I can’t. This is going to take time and I am not sure
if my current employer is willing to wait. The job description I was given upon
being hired was not accurate and has continued to change. I am not big on
change, obviously or I would not weigh over 500 pounds. Apparently, my hours
are going to be cut because another person will be hired. I can barely pay my
bills now. I am trying to trust that God knows what He is doing. I know He
does, but I am still upset. I really want to order a pizza or two double cheeseburgers
from Sonic. Oh my gosh, either would be so good! I hope I can be strong and not
give in to temptation. Will my broccoli, potatoes, and pork chops be as good
tonight? I feel like crying. I want cupcakes.
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