Trying this again folks!

Okay, so I find it funny that the last time I wrote on here, it was about not having motivation. I am currently facing the same problem. Four weeks ago, my mom, brother, sister n law, and I started our own weight watchers meetings and plan. I have been leading the meetings, which I love to do. However, I seem to lack the motivation to do things I say in the meetings. I prayed today for God to help me make better food choices, and for part of the day I felt that that worked. Ultimately, the choices are MINE and I need to decide whether I want to be fat, unhappy, lethargic, and in pain OR healthy and living life doing things I've never done before (or things I haven't done in a LOOOOONG time). Even writing this, I feel bummed thinking about the road ahead. I have got to find a way to make this happen. I am so tired and feel like giving up, but I can't. I want to lose weight so I can teach, sing, help people, and be myself. Anyone knowing how I feel, please share!